Blissfest 2009 in AZ

I will be at the Blissfest Market today from 10-noon.
Come and enjoy the sites and smells of all the beautiful creations.

Terror on Briar Avenue

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Justin Hackworth

Do you still see me?

I asked Mr. Nielson with tears
in my eyes if he could still see me.

He was shocked at the question and slightly confused. But he answered anyway; he said he didn’t compare me to anything especially my appearance before the accident.

Maybe he doesn’t, but I do.

Sometimes I actually scare myself.

Yesterday at the grocery store a woman turned around to me in the
line and with an exhausted look she blurted out:
“Oh, I feel just the way you look!!”

I wanted to curl up and cry in the fetal position right there in isle three. I looked away and tears stung my eyes. I wasn’t prepared to have confirmed to me what I had felt earlier that morning after I had scrubbed my fragile body in the shower until it bled.

Part of the deal I chose, I guess.

I guess I should just suck it up and remember my blessings.

But part of me hurts for outward beauty.

When I lie in my bed as still as can be, I feel like the Stephanie before. Out my eyes I feel just the same. I feel perfect. My skin isn’t strained and my joints don’t rip my thin skin over and over with each movement.

That’s why getting up is hard to do.

I had another perfect moment today as I lay on my couch.
The sky was a lovely shade of blue. My weeping willow’s leaves glowed bright yellow and it moved so slowly and graceful in the autumn wind.

I was so quiet.

I was so still.

And the Lord was talking to me. He was whispering to me his love for me. He was proud of me and I felt my blessings restored to me. He is so real. He is there. He sees so much more than we do. He is the light and truth and anything that is good that I have, is of Him.

And then, I felt beautiful.

Check out what's cooking at CuisineNie!

So close

Dad,

It was so close.
You fought a good fight, and I am so proud of you!
I am excited to see what other adventure
will take you to bigger and better endeavors.

I love you so much!

Go DAD

Please go and vote TODAY TODAY TODAY!!!



(dad with is grandsons Luke, Max and Nicholas)

I will keep you posted. Cross your fingers for Steve Clark!

Also,
KSL is doing a special story on me this Thursday at 10:00 pm.
It should be very sweet.

Check out the promo here:

My favorite things

Here are a list of my new favorite things. Check them out.


1. Ban.do- the most unique wear for your head. And by far the cutest. I have this one. I love it. So big, so colorful and so me. And, it was featured in Marie Claire

2. Shade- A very lovely site for modest and chic clothes. My favorites here and here.

3-Shabby Apple Fitness- A new site for those of you looking for good quality, attractive yoga clothes. My personal favorite here. A nice pair of yoga pants that fit perfect (and make my shape look like it has shape)

4. Motionbox- A more efficient way of sharing video and only letting those you want to see it view it. Besides that, it's easy.

5. The Vintage Pearl- Perfect gifts and trinkets for birthday's, celebrations and the holidays...my favorite is this ditty. So cute and clever in every way.

6. Dear Lizzie- We had Claire's birthday at their beautiful shop. I am in awe to this day thinking about the fantastic time we had there. Book your holiday tea party today...you wont regret it.

7. Virtue lips- What is your virtue? Mine is Curiosity.

8.My Camera. Many of you ask what I use...well, here you go.

9. Ohanabylea-the coolest custom silhouette cutouts ever...ever.
Check out my family here. Order yours today...soooooo cool.

I hope this helps you-especially with Christmas approaching...



notes:
tomorrow is the big day for my Dad. please vote!!

i visited my PO box again. i love every single one of you- oh -so -much!

halloween was perfect...posts and pictures to come.

Hanging around

Have a fantastic weekend.

Happy Halloween

Spiritual enlightenment here.

8 is great

I will never forget when Claire was born.
They were the most unique moments of my life.
One that I will never forget.
Never.
I am reminded each day that our sweet children are on "loan" to us from our Heavenly Father.
I am reminded becuase of Claire's dear, sensitive spirit in our home.
Claire sees the world in rich and deep color.
Her choices are thought out.
She is particular and cautious.
Claire is shy, and yet daring.
Once Claire faked a stomach ache at church during Sunday school. Her teacher brought her to me where I was teaching Sunday school. I was concerned and had her come in my class and sit in. Then Claire sat down and made a huge paper airplane which she launched.
From across the room it landed on my knee.
It was so disrupting.
I was shocked and embarrassed and she giggled.
Re-telling the story to Mr. Nielson later that day,
I couldn't help but laugh uncontrollably.

That's my Claire.
That is what she does to me.

She will teach me more lessons about life than anyone.

I love you toadie!
Happy Birthday!

Also, congrats to Ms. Jones today is a special day for her too.