at the prestigious Mayo Clinic in Phoenix.
The reason: my hands.
Particularly my left hand.
My hands were so burned in the accident that there really was no skin to hold
them together and my best friend Lindsay said when she would visit me
at the burn center, she would watch dressing changes on my hands and they
had no skin on them.
Lindsay thinks stuff like that is "fascinating" so she didn't faint
or anything like that. That's why I love her.
Anyway, because I was in a coma, I couldn't move my hands and my ligaments were
so burned that it caused everything to stiffen up.
Now I can't bend them- not one finger.
I have learned to adapt. I can zip, button, pull, vacuum, tie shoes, rub backs,
put make-up on, cook dinner and change diapers.
I am so grateful.
I can do anything. It's just hard and painful.
My left pinkie was hit the worse.
Doc said I broke in the initial accident and then through the coma,
physical therapy, and surgeries the pinkie fused together causing this:
It feels like I have a headache in my hands.
Dr. Smith said amputation is best.
I held it together, but then cried.
I cried because it is a part of me, and I am not excited to cut it off.
Its been with me through so much.
There really is no good choice here. Both are horrible:
Keep = pain
Cut = no pain, but no finger.
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(I LOVE MY DAD, and my HUSBAND and my BROTHERS!)